| Location | Warrington |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 6/2007 |
| Date of Death | 6/2007 |
| Visitors | 3,734 since 16/08/2007 |
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Joshua Callum Fuller, Born asleep on the 11 June 2007 at Warrington General Hospital
We found out i was pregnant on the 9th of december, I went for my first scan and was told i had lost the baby or it was too early to be scanned and was told to come back in two weeks, which was going into the christmas week. The doctor asked me to go in on the 23rd December so that we could enjoy christmas with our 2 other daughters. When i went back i was so worried that they would tell me i had lost the baby. They called me in and started the scan i kept my eyes closed then i heard a voice say "Theres the heart beat" i was so relieved i had tears running down my face. This was going to be the best christmas present we could have asked for. we left the hospital so happy, we were on top of the world. When we got home i told my 2 daughters Lauren aged 9 and Caitlin aged 4 we were having a baby. they jumped up and down with excitement. I attended every antenatal appointment and everything was fine. when we went for our 20 week scan we asked what sex our baby was, she told us it was a boy. My husband was over the moon and was saying all the things they would do when he was older. When i got to 28 weeks we paid to have a 3d scan done it was amazing. I went to see the midwife when i was 31 weeks pregnant and she said "your going to have a big baby" I just laughed as i was so pleased to be pregnant. We went out and got loads of clothes for him, He would be the best dressed baby in town. We paid for his pram and had everything ready for him, all we were waiting for was Joshua to arrive into the world. On Friday the 8th of june i had a bar of chocolate and waited for Joshua to start kicking ( he must have had a sweet tooth) Nothing happened. Saturday morning we went to town and bought him some more clothes and some baby toys. When we got home i had another bar of chocolate and still no kicks my heart began to pound with fear. My husband phoned the hospital who advised us to go down. I took my daughters to my dads house and rushed down to the hospital. The midwife got me up onto the bed and told me they were going to listen to the babys heart beat, they couldnt find one and said it was due to the way the baby was laying. They called for another midwife. The second midwife also couldn't hear a beat so the portable ultra sound machine was employed quickly to establish what was happening. By this time I was already shaking and in tears and whispered to my husband that I think our son was gone. After a couple of minutes we heard the words that every mother should never have to hear, "I am afraid that we cannot find any heart beat and our son had passed away". Stunned, my husband and I were shocked and both cried and held each other for a while. The midwifes had left the room after the news, however returned shortly afterwards and explained our options. We decided to go home after we had composed ourselves we decided to tell both our daughters that our son had died and their brother must have been really poorly and had died in mummy's tummy. Both of them took the news badly and we decided that they should stay at the granddads house that night. The following morning, after having a restless night, my husband and I returned back to the hospital with some clothes to put joshua in and we were ushered into the rear of the maternity suite (family room) to discuss inducing labour and delivering baby joshua 'naturally'. After a few false starts and the breaking of the waters and the insertion of the epidural Joshua was born at 10.24pm Monday 11th June 2007. He was absolutely perfect and although my husband cut the cord there was no crying from Joshua and it was just as if he was asleep. He weighed 4lb 2 oz and we requested that the midwife dressed him and he was placed in the adjacent moses basket so we could spend some time with him.We spent the night with Joshua at our bed side and i was waiting for him to let out a cry but nothing, the news just wasnt getting through to us. Early hours of Tuesday morning the minister was called in to baptise our son. Tuesday at mid-day we said that we should hand Joshua over to the midwife and go home. this was so hard for both me and my husband, having given birth and going home with nothing and seeing all the other mums with their new baby in their arms. All the midwives were fantastic and we could not fault any of them. The funeral was held on the 21st June 2007 at walton lea crematorium, Family and friends and friends from both my works and my husbands came. We asked that no flower were given but if people could donate money, which would go to Warrington General hospital Family room. We raised £250 which went towards items we felt were missing inside the family room, this being a safe for personal belongings. we had a plaque made up to go on top of the safe in memory of Joshua.
Our son Joshua will never be forgotten and will be missed dearly by all involved throughout the pregnancy.
Joshua Callum Fuller xxxxx R.I.P xxxxx
This was a poem our 9yr old daughter read at the funeral
J is for Joshua who was going to be our baby brother
O is for over the moon which is how we all felt
S is for sadness when we knew it was not to be
H is for hope that he is growing in heaven
U is for understanding that sometimes bad things happen
A is for always being my brother
- Joshua-Callum Fuller.. Born asleep- taken too soon+i would do anything to have you back here with us:( I sit and think about you and just cry becasue i think it should have been the other way around.. Your mummy needs to know your there for her right now.. Very hard times!! Just remember one day i'll see you again:'( I think of the times i came to the scans and i saw your tiny little fingers+toes+little button nose that remindeed everyone of me.. Please send as many hugs&kisses down to me&your mummy to help us get through these times:( i can honestly say i have never missed someone so much in my entire life.. Hope you&your nanna Anne are keeping safe¬ having too much fun.. Keeping my chin up&staying strong my gorgeous little star.. I'll send you a message everyday or try to considering i'm in year nine now and need to get work done.. Love you always&forever little man:'(.. Missed by many- forgotten by none!
- Missing you..
- Dear Joshua..
My heart aches everytime i think of you; Please look after you mummy right now.. She needs you!
- my gorgeous baby brother:(!
- Joshua, i miss you so much&wish you were back here with us.. but we know that can't happen:(..
Mummy&daddy have had a lot to deal with but they are strong and will get through everything:D!..
Got to go but will speak soon gorgeous:D! miss you millions..
Love you to the moon&back:(
love lauren
Feeling Sorry At This Time
Heyya Joshua, you probably don't remember me, I'm one of Lauren's friends and I just want you to know she's struggling without you she's slowly getting back up on her feet but she just needs a bit of your help she needs you to show her your still here in her prayers, she sings songs to remind herself of you and hopes your singing them too. Remember we all still love and miss you and your never forgotten.
Hope you have a good birthday on Saturday and don't eat to much cake + I'll try and save you some of mine because It's my birthday the day before yours.
Missing you always little man xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Lots Of Love, Hugs + Kisses From Your Special Friend Sharna - The One You Know You Can Rely On To Look After Your Big Sis ♥♥
- i love you
- wish heaven had a phone so i could here your voice again. I thought of you today but that is nothing new, i thought about you yesterday and the day before that too. I think of you in silence i often speak your name, all i have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsafe from which i'll never part, god has you in his arms i have you in my heart:-)♥
J- is for Joshua..
O- is for over the moon as you lay in mummy's belly..
S- is for sadness as they spoke; 'it wasn't meant to be'..
H- is for hopeing your growing well with all your angel friends..
U- is for understanding your gone..
A- is for always being my baby brother..
C- is for carrying you for 7 months was the easy part..
A- always keeping mummy up by kicking..
L- loving you everyday..
L- laughing at you scan pictures..
U- understanding why you were taken is the hardest thing to do..
M- many kisses+cuddles go to you up in heaven..
F- is for fear of not being able to cope without you near..
U- is for unstopable pain we have for our loss..
L- is for listening to your heartbeat at the hospital..
L- is for leaving you behind..
E- is for eyes filling up as we walked away..
R- is for resting in your cot with your special little teddy we bought you..
-JOSHUA CALLUM FULLER- my special little boy:-)♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
Love you forever:'( kisses and cuddles for my special boy:'( Mwuah!♥
- your always in my heart
- Hello baby brother, this is your big sister Lauren here...
I can not put it in words how much you mean to me and there is not one day that your not in my heart. You never leave my mind... There is a part of you in everything i do. Mummy+Daddy are not how they udsed to be but both still love you very much,You now have a baby broter that is soon two. People try and move on but not once have you ever left my mind.
Everynight i think to myself 'why did jesus have a second chance? but people like you don't even have a chance to begin with.' Maybe things just arn't meant to be... Love you always baby boy♥
Stay with me in my heart...♥ Bet you and all your little agel friends are up there playing... Love you forever little man♥♥♥
Lauren-nicole Ellis♥! aged 13..
Happy Birthday Little Man
It has been 3 years since you left us, however there isn't a day that I haven't thought about you and I hope that you are playing with all your angel friends. I have tidied your garden up for you and Mummy, Lauren and Caitlin all send their love. Night Night Love Daddyx
Hello Baby Bro X
Hiyaa Lil Bro,
Tomorrow Is 3 years Scince You Got Taken Away From Us And Since That Day We Have Done Nothing But Pray For You To Be With You One Day And Until That Day Comes All We Can Do Is Think And Hope You Will Be Okay !!
Well I Don't Know What Else To Say Really Just I Reallly Do Miss You And Love You And Just That I Would Give Anything For You To Here With Us Even Just For A Second Just So We Could Hold You , Kiss You And See You Just One More Time X
Well It's My Bedtime Now X
Hope To See You Soon X
Keep Ya Chin Up Kidda X
Love You Lots Baby Bro X
3 years on
Hiya lil man Well it will be 3 years tomorrow since you were taken from us and there isnt a day goes by where we dont think about you, You are always in our hearts and thoughts and we all wish you were here with us still. I always ask myself Why???? and blame myself as i was the one that was carrying you xx Nobody can take my memories aways and they will always be close to my heart forever. We will make tomorrow a special day for you son and i hope you watch down on us and smile xxx I wish i could hold you in my arms again and kiss you and smell you again, I hope one day we will meet again but until that day all i can do is pray that you are safe and watching down on us. Love you always son lots of hugs and kisses Mummy xxxxxxx Give nanny Ann a big kiss and hug from me and tell her to that I love and miss her loads too xxx
God needed an angel in heaven
When Jesus lived upon the earth so many years ago,
He called the children close to him because he loved them so.....
And with that tenderness of old, that same sweet, gentle way,
He holds your little loved one close within his arms today.....
And you’ll find comfort in your faith that in his home above
The God of little children gives your little one his love....
So think of you little darling lighthearted and happy and free
Playing in God’s promised land where there is joy eternally.
Helen Steiner Rice
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